BALANCE

My new word this year has been Balance. The beginning of the year I tried to stay focused on having a better balance in my life. More time in God's word, getting to know HIM better, enjoying my family more, having quality time with my husband, having free time for crafts, yardwork, or computer creativity which I enjoy, reading more books, relaxing in the pool on a float without feeling guilty, spending time with friends and many other things that would round out my nice life. At this stage of my life you would think that would all come together but it hasn't. The first of the year started out better than it is now. I tend to get boggled down with life and forget I am LIVING life as we speak and I need to enjoy things more instead of taking care of life. Does any of this makes sense to anyone?

Before now I spent the last 2 yrs working on the word FREEDOM in my life. There is freedom in turning everything over to GOD and letting HIM handle it. There is freedom in not knowing everything about your children. There is freedom in not feeling responsible for everyone's happiness. It's hard turning lose and letting go with God, we think if we can control it somehow it will turn out how we think it should turn out. But I have learned from experience that God's way is always the best way. I don't want to know everything about what is going on in my adult children's lives. It's just been the hardest thing for me to quit mothering my children. I loved being a mother to my 2 grown sons, every aspect of it, so that makes it hard. I'm just thankful I am a part of their lives and I still have alot of work to do with myself. Motherhood has been my greatest calling. I love my husband and have always loved taking care of him, my home and our sons. Is it just me or are their other mothers out there like that?